Ever since entering JC, I've realized that I've been getting increasingly emotional.
I've felt like crying over really random things this year, a feeling I haven't gotten in a long long while, if I'm not wrong, something I've never experienced since the end like 10. Strange things have started the "sour" feeling in my nose recently, really random things, from seeing David Archuleta, to like just feeling the exhaustion during camp, those unsolvable math questions, and now like even classic drama sob scenes that I used to laugh at for their utter cheesiness.
Weird, I figured that the stress would toughen me up, but it looks like its actually breaking me down.
Seriously, I need to do something to build up that defense. I'll have to find a way. Maybe Final Destination.
Something just needs to be done.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Turn of events.
I am really starting to develop a liking for economics. It is so logical and commonsensical, but yet at the same time, in need of so much precise jargon to actually get you your marks. For some reason, although I've never really liked anything that has got to do with graphs, I was rather fascinated with the graphs that explained, or rather, illuminated so many of the economic concepts. The recent lectures on market dominance are really interested me. Can't wait to attend more of the lectures on market failure!
Is it me or do I sound like a total nerd?
Oh yeah, Math also got a lot more fun now with the addition of statistics. Although I'm still fumbling a little, I think I have the basics pretty well, and it seems so much easier to do that freaking differentiation and integration. Alas, I might be wrong though, since we've barely covered I'd say 10% of the statistics topics. Still, I am looking forward to doing more of Statistics.
Maybe then, just maybe, when I start to like Math again, I might start to do well it in, though I suspect my hatred for Math that has lasted for 7 years now would go away that easily.
Maybe its the AJ mood, maybe its the worry of promotional examinations, maybe its the threat of competition, but my desire to excel for my promotional examinations are stronger than ever.
Is it me or do I sound like a total nerd?
Oh yeah, Math also got a lot more fun now with the addition of statistics. Although I'm still fumbling a little, I think I have the basics pretty well, and it seems so much easier to do that freaking differentiation and integration. Alas, I might be wrong though, since we've barely covered I'd say 10% of the statistics topics. Still, I am looking forward to doing more of Statistics.
Maybe then, just maybe, when I start to like Math again, I might start to do well it in, though I suspect my hatred for Math that has lasted for 7 years now would go away that easily.
Maybe its the AJ mood, maybe its the worry of promotional examinations, maybe its the threat of competition, but my desire to excel for my promotional examinations are stronger than ever.
Sunday, August 23, 2009
Concrete Angel
Stacey, a friend of mine, recently passed me the link to this song. Little did I know, this video is actually one of the most touching I've seen in a while. Take some time to watch this video and listen for the lyrics, its pretty meaningful. This is also based on a real story of the singer's niece (apart for the angelic part, i assume). Makes it just so much more impactful.
Concrete Angel
Songwriters: Bentley, Stephanie; Crosby, Rob;
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holding back
Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace, oh
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear but they turn out the light
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it will be too late
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
Watching this, I recall this book I wanted to get for a while already, titled "Mummy Doesn't Love You". This is probably a great opportunity for myself to indulge in emo-ness and feel really lucky at the same time that my parents are not alcoholic and/or abusive.
Concrete Angel
Songwriters: Bentley, Stephanie; Crosby, Rob;
She walks to school with the lunch she packed
Nobody knows what she's holding back
Wearing the same dress she wore yesterday
She hides the bruises with the linen and lace, oh
The teacher wonders but she doesn't ask
It's hard to see the pain behind the mask
Bearing the burden of a secret storm
Sometimes she wishes she was never born
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
Somebody cries in the middle of the night
The neighbors hear but they turn out the light
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate
When morning comes it will be too late
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
A statue stands in a shaded place
An angel girl with an upturned face
A name is written on a polished rock
A broken heart that the world forgot
Through the wind and the rain she stands hard as a stone
In a world that she can't rise above
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place
Where she's loved concrete angel
Watching this, I recall this book I wanted to get for a while already, titled "Mummy Doesn't Love You". This is probably a great opportunity for myself to indulge in emo-ness and feel really lucky at the same time that my parents are not alcoholic and/or abusive.
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Unsatisfactory.
Hmm, got back my english paper recently (General Paper) and I'm quite disappointed to know that I only managed to get a B. Oh, and i failed Math, as usual. Still waiting for my History, Literature and Economics results but I doubt I'll pass any of them anyway.
Life's been pretty tough, barely getting enough sleep, and yeah, I think I need more sleep. Seriously.
On a serious note, I really feel the rush to study again. Its back! Hopefully it'll stay, since the Promotional Examinations are only 10 weeks away, which is not a lot of time. *Gasp*
Life's been pretty tough, barely getting enough sleep, and yeah, I think I need more sleep. Seriously.
On a serious note, I really feel the rush to study again. Its back! Hopefully it'll stay, since the Promotional Examinations are only 10 weeks away, which is not a lot of time. *Gasp*
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Update
Just a little update, I'm now suffering with exams. General Paper (English) was pretty decent, except that the comprehension was super challenging to paraphrase, and Economics today, lets just say I'm getting my ass ready to be fried by my tutor. I actually knew most of the answers, but the bad time management still got the better of me in the end. Ahh the pain and pity!
The next few papers are not looking so bright either, Math I just suck at naturally, History which althought I have somewhat an interest for, yet have failed to pass any paper, and Literature, let's just say I need more time to get the hang of it.
This is definitely the best way ever to torture your students just back from holidays. Hell, i didn't even have much of a holiday, it was just a lot of mugging.
Way to go, higher education!
Why do I sound so negative lately? :-\
Wait, that's just life. :(
The next few papers are not looking so bright either, Math I just suck at naturally, History which althought I have somewhat an interest for, yet have failed to pass any paper, and Literature, let's just say I need more time to get the hang of it.
This is definitely the best way ever to torture your students just back from holidays. Hell, i didn't even have much of a holiday, it was just a lot of mugging.
Way to go, higher education!
Why do I sound so negative lately? :-\
Wait, that's just life. :(
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
Shame.
I've decided to make this post a little more interesting than my usual ones. (Or so I hope.)
I was on the train, on my way to
school .
and was listening to music from my
upon approaching the station i was supposed to get off, i decided to get up early and stood by the door.
Suddenly, the train jerked to a stop,
and my
hit the
train door.
People were
at me, so I had to ignore my bleeding lips and pretend nothing happened.
Meh, what a day.
Hope this was entertaining, cause life is too boring for all of us. Actually, for me, I don't really care about you. :D
*evil laugh*
*choke*
I was on the train, on my way to
school .
and was listening to music from my
upon approaching the station i was supposed to get off, i decided to get up early and stood by the door.
Suddenly, the train jerked to a stop,
and my
hit the
train door.
People were
at me, so I had to ignore my bleeding lips and pretend nothing happened.
Meh, what a day.
Hope this was entertaining, cause life is too boring for all of us. Actually, for me, I don't really care about you. :D
*evil laugh*
*choke*
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